This process was good for
me. I am a firm believer in that to learn fully you have to practice what you
are learning. To this affect, I need to be constantly utilizing the theories
and practices I am taught in our courses. The leadership shadow was helpful
because I was able to observe someone else put leadership practices into the
work place but doing the leadership experience is really where I learned.
I was thrown into
this event with little guidance, which was good and bad. As a 1/8 Print, I
really like structure and rules. Nevertheless, since I didn’t have that here it
was a lesson in using my strengths in a different way than I am used to. I had
to be more “go with the flow.” It was not at all an easy task but I think in
the end it worked out. I need to keep in mind that not everyone is as
structured and rigid in his or her thinking and actions as I am. Being flexible
is important as a leader, especially if I end up going into event
planning. Another lesson I learned through this process was to be open
minded. When I first saw “close-minded” listed on my shadow traits I was
convinced that it was wrong. I am completely open minded. If you want to
legalize marijuana, go ahead. If a gay couple wants to get married, I have no
issue. But I now realize that it has less to do with the view on society and
more on my openness to others ideas. While going over the plan on where
to walk during the show, one of the models had a different idea and pre-HTM
Christine would have shot her down. But post-HTM Christine wasn’t so quick to
judge because it wasn’t my idea. It ended up turning into a better event
because of this idea and I just confirmed my realization that although its
really surprising, I’m not always right.
Another lesson I kind of
learned but is still a work in progress is to find the middle ground between
strict and authoritative and a pushover. One of the models was not keeping in
contact a few weeks before the event and my first instinct was to be rude and
bossy and really show them that it wasn’t acceptable. However, I kept my cool
and decided to come at the situation a different way that would hopefully be
more effective in not only changing their behavior but also not loosing the
respect of the model. I asked them to meet up in person up for coffee and
it ended up they were having personal issues. I struggle with being too firm
but at the same time I don't want to be seen as a weak leader for letting stuff
go. It is a fine line and I think that the more practice I have in leadership
the easier it will be able to navigate.
Another lesson I learned
was for time management. Of course everyone has a hectic schedule since most of
the volunteers, including me, work and go to school full time. So some parts of
the process were rushed and could have gone much smoother. The event definitely
snuck up on me and I believe the people under me could tell that. Overall that
just lessened the quality of my leadership and is definitely something I still
need to approve upon.
My leadership philosophy
has changed a little bit during this course. Before I believed that just
telling and giving proper explanation to the people I’m leading was the proper
way to lead and get things done. With the introduction of using vision and
mission statements during the course, I now realize how important it is to have
people understand why you are doing what you are doing and believe in the work.
I used this theory while working on my leadership experience and I think it
helped get everyone on board and take the whole event more seriously.